Milestones

Assalamualaikum,
I know it has been a very long time since I updated my journal. Sejak akhir-akhir ni, busy benar. Alhamdulillah, my mid term results are out. Rezeki I semester ni baik, alhamdulillah. I managed to get the highest marks in every subject I took in my course.

Surah Ibrahim, ayat 7

[14.7] And when your Lord made it known: If you are grateful, I would certainly give to you more, and if you are ungrateful, My punishment is truly severe.

But we have always to remember our intentions, that we cannot use religion by any means to obtain any portion of this world. I have always considered that the ups and downs which students face with regard to exam results are merely his desire of this world. We may feel that it is the way to get respect from others, and thus we do this by trying to get good exam results. We have to rectify our niat (nawaitu) and not seek this world for
“Whoever desires the gain of the hereafter, We will give him more of that again; and whoever desires-- the gain of this world, We give him of it, and in the hereafter he has no portion[42.20].”
because
“…the hereafter is better and more lasting. [87.17]”.
There is a certain satisfaction obtained, yet u will find that this satisfaction is never ending, and just grows, that sometimes it just eats u up slowly. If one does very well in exams, he will just want more. Its just nafsu u know, nafsu takkan dapat dipenuhi permintaannya.
Entahlah, I feel so weak, u know. This trial of wealth, respect in this world seems so within reach, just by hard work. Hard work alone is okay, very highly encouraged by Islam. But the feelings and trials which comes with it, the selfishness, the greed, it gets too much and needs to be controlled all the time.
“And this world's life is naught but a play and an idle sport [6.32].”
But you know what, this play seems so real. Its definitely a sport, a sport of wealth, children, knowledge. I am sure all of us sometimes (or maybe often) sink in the false promises this world has to offer. There are times we lose, and there are times we win. It’s really seasonal, depending on your faith. When u win a lot, u tend to become complacent, and then when u start losing, it takes some time to get yourself geared up again.
U know, I think my brother has kind of changed a little. He used to go to the mosque so much last time. Lately, his rezeki is very good. He gets a lot of big projects, requiring him to network with a lot of big shots, and at the same time still does well in studies too. The world has started to ‘come’ to him, really. And he has been really busy with his projects, that he neglects his mothers requests at home sometimes, and doesn’t have time to go to the mosque coz he is so tired that he fell asleep. He still prays, fasts often, and does all the fardhu things though. Just he doesn’t visit the mosque as often as before. I guess that’s what the world does to us. Make us busy, it is just a trial really. To see if we will forget Him or be more thankful by obeying Allah more.
May Allah aid us through every trial. Amin.

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